Will it ever justify its own presence?

At least I'm not as paranoid as the parade spruiker. At least I'm aware of my paranoia.
But I question its usefulness.
I have tried to tame it. I have tried to accept its presence and work with it.
It may be an asset, if were in need of constantly figuring out the absolute, worst case scenario. And I mean the abstract and obscure worst case scenarios.
Well, I tried using it as a strength. Repeatedly.
And I have to say, its not working.
Never has my paranoia justified its own existence.
Never has my paranoia shown me that it is a valuable contributor to my mental activity.
It is a detractor. It is a usurper. It is trying to overthrow me.
What will it do with the crown, if it succeeds?
Crack it open and use the goop for omelettes?
That's about all it could do, because the rest of my mind will be absolutely useless.
I would become the new parade spruiker.
No thanks.